Last Diary Entries of a Heartbroken Boy

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Last Diary Entries of a Heartbroken Boy

 

The last message the young man wrote in his diary reflected what was probably going through his mind in the moments before he took his own life: "Never love anybody with your whole heart."

 

"The time the message was written, as he marked it in the diary, was 6.13am. After that, he jumped," the father of Chaowalit Sathitsuk, 17, said after his son's suicide yesterday.

 

Stress and a broken heart are believed to have driven Chaowalit, a Grade-10 student of Ekamai International School, to jump to his death from his apartment yesterday morning. A farewell message left in his diary apologised to his family.

 

Chaowalit is assumed to have jumped from his room on the fifth floor of an apartment building in Soi Pridi Phanomyong 37 on Sukhumvit 71 Road. Police officers found a message in the boy's diary which read; "Sorry to my family that I do this. I don't know any other way to suicide, jumping is an easy way and won't become a crime case. Love mum."

 

According to police, Chaowalit wrote that he was distressed about love amongst other entries on topics such as space and extraterrestrial beings.

 

Police found music still playing in his room while footprints and a partially smoked cigarette were found on the railing of a balcony. The room was otherwise undisturbed.

 

Chaowalit's mother, Sumalee Sathitsuk, told police that Chaowalit was a cheerful boy, but suffered from the congenital disease of thalassemia. His educational record was fair.

 

Sumalee added that Chaowalit lived with his father and grandmother, but was alone yesterday when he jumped. She said she had told Chaowalit she wanted to meet with his teacher to discuss his academic record, which may have left him feeling more stressed.

 

"He liked to spend his leisure time playing fighting computer games and reading books about spirits. I have no idea what is the real reason behind his suicide," said Sumalee through her tears. She later cried until she fainted after receiving Chaowalit's body at Chulalongkorn Hospital.

 

Chaowalit's father, Kamphol, said he didn't think his son had any problems at school or home.

 

His family recently discovered Chaowalit was disappointed after being rejected by a 26-year-old woman he had met on the Internet. However, they had seen nothing to indicate that he was suicidal.

 

"The previous night, my son asked me to buy him a CD and later said he wanted to be alone that night. So I went to stay at another condo and never thought that he would commit suicide," said Kamphol.

 

He found that Chaowalit had written much in his diary about the 26-year-old woman, from the first day they met until the last day of his life.

 

"This is the biggest loss of my life and my family. Without my son, I feel like I have lost everything," said Kamphol.