Hard to say goodbye

[TotallyOz]

Well, the BF and I officially broke up over a week ago. It was hard for both of us. I had him come to visit me one day on the bike ride and when he arrived I was 100 percent certain he had gotten back on Yabba in my absence. It did break my heart. I needed a few days to think about it and it was not something I was willing to go through again. I cut off all him ATM's and Credit Cards and called him to say goodbye. As a severance package (the second one in one month) I told him that the 2 motorbikes I had in his name were his to do with as he pleased and to sell them for drugs or rent or whatever he desires. I also asked that he never contact me again. I am sure I will change on the contact part as time heals the wounds of the sad feelings and distance separates us and allows us to move on in different directions. It was perhaps the hardest thing I had to do in a long time but when I saw his eyes and his lying to me about the drugs, I knew I had no choice. He had led a very good life for a long time but in the end, he had to decide the direction of his life instead of me pointing the way.

 

Yes, I am sad and yes it was hard but it was the right move for both of us.

 

Now, I have only one lad who takes great care of me. He does not drink, smoke or do drugs. But, he is so horny that I need a break from him weekly or I'll never get to be a little bit of a butterfly. His philosophy is to keep me to himself by draining me of all sexual energy 2-3 times every day. It does work as I an ever interested in anyone else when he is around.

 

This is also my first truly gay boyfriend in Thailand. I will be interested to find out how the future holds for both of us.

 

I have treated him and his family to a 4 day holiday in Phuket at a nice hotel and great food and adventures. Yesterday, our ATV adventure also threw out my back but a good 2 hour massage by the Boy Special cured the back and I was as good as new. BTW: it was his fault my back was out as he was passing me and I slid into a rubber tire and took a nice jolt. Boys will be boys.

[Guest laurence]

I had him come to visit me one day on the bike ride and when he arrived I was 100 percent certain he had gotten back on Yabba in my absence.

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Good for you! Remember a few weeks ago you were in denial of his drug use? None of us want to believe the truth but as that old saying goes "the truth will set you free."

 

 

[Guest Steve1903]

Can never understand the drugs attraction especially when someone coming from a poorer background has such a good chance to have a nice life.

 

What is ATV?

[Guest luvthai]

ATV= All Terrain Vehicle. I understand your loss of one you care so much about but I vowed never to compete with the drugs/alcohol again. It is hard but hopefully the tough love will someday be understood by him.

[Guest]

It is hard but hopefully the tough love will someday be understood by him.

 

I think he already does but like you, I said I would never deal with a yaba boy again. It is the one thing I cannot deal with.

[PattayaMale]

yaba must be so terribly addicting. And unfortunately some of the Thai boys that use it are very sweet. A friend of mine actually lost his business because he could not let go of his BF. The BF borrowed money from the mafia and the mafia tried successfully to get the farang to pay it. Sad

 

What great news though that you have found a gay BF this time. I hope it works out well for you both. Has he an interest in bike riding? It might be fun if you could go on an abbreviated bike trip to some of the places you really liked away for the commercial sex scene.

[Guest]

Has he an interest in bike riding? It might be fun if you could go on an abbreviated bike trip to some of the places you really liked away for the commercial sex scene.

 

He actually asked to do it this year with me but I was not willing to risk it with him not training for it. It would be a 2k donation plus his bike and etc and I wasn't sure he would make it. But, he insists he wants to do it with me if I do it again next year. He met up with several of my biker buddies and they all adored him and I think it really impressed upon him that I had made some friends outside of the gogo bars and that is what he wants anyway. If he does a trip with me, I am sure part of it will be to keep me under control and protect his assets. Like I said, a smart boy.

[Guest]

I held strong until my very last night in Thailand. The BF wanted to see me and I wanted to say goodbye to him. Seeing him messed up from 5 different motorcycle bike accidents in 5 weeks and the toll things have taken on him were very hard. He also has some very enlightening moments since he has been in the poor house and he learned a lot about friends and family over the past month.

 

He says he wants to go to be a monk for 2-3 months while I am away and wanted to know if that would make me happy. I told him it would. We shall see what decisions he makes over the coming weeks and if he is actually serious about making some changes in his life.