Guest gcursor Posted March 6, 2012 Posted March 6, 2012 I'm pretty sure that I'm swearing off escorts forever after this last year. Many of them really don't get my sense of humor and I'm very isolate (or so I'm told) even when I'm with them. I'm not even sure that I'll be seeing guys much anymore either because being gay just seems a bit too stressful for me...seeing escorts is WAY too stressful for me with everything that goes on. I've had all sorts of encounters last year but one of them told me that "he didn't think I was gay because there was a bored look in my eyes when he was naked". I've never really be a guy who has my hands all over dancers in clubs or guys on dates or anywhere else. I always try to show a little bit of decorum and some respect with who I'm with. I don't jump on a chair and bark and lick them all over when I see them but that doesn't mean that I'm not gay.I'm just not as "overly excited" about certain aspects of it as others are. Anyway I thought that seeing escorts during these past few years would show me a place where I belong..a niche for me in life. Sadly it hasn't. I don't fit in with many of the personalities that I've met. The ones that finally DID catch on to me personality (or so they say) realized it far too late as I had moved on to somebody else. In the end, I'm not really sure that many of the escorts really made me feel good about myself although I know that's not their principal job. However I would hope that some of them would make me feel somewhat good considering that typically I never had sex with them and that I would consider most of the dates with me to be very very "low pressure" in terms of rushing things to happen on the dates. There may be a day when I return but it will be when everybody is treated as equals. Everybody respects everybody and isn't trying just to out-do each other. I will still keep posting on the forums now and then but I think the other stuff is out for me. Somebody told me once that I should stop doing things if they stop being fun and escorting stopped being that for me some months ago sadly. gcursor Quote
Members MsGuy Posted March 6, 2012 Members Posted March 6, 2012 Gcursor, you must do what's best for you but I hope that putting away escorts doesn't mean we won't be seeing you here. It's been three years since my health permitted much in the way of gallivanting around, but I still enjoy hanging out at MER. And part of that enjoyment has been reading your posts. Quote
Guest EXPAT Posted March 6, 2012 Posted March 6, 2012 I've gone through periods where I've put escorts away too. In fact I really have done that now with the exception of Shaun Ross. I really enjoy his company and I like spending time with him occasionally. But sometimes priorities change and sometimes your interests lie elsewhere. So you should do what you need to do and don't worry what anyone else may think. Quote
caeron Posted March 6, 2012 Posted March 6, 2012 I hope you take this with the kindness that is intended. You don't need escorts, you need a therapist. As someone who has used them more than a few times myself, it sounds like you need to find a gay positive therapist and just talk. Escorts can scratch a particular itch, but it sounds to me like you're asking more of them and yourself than can really work. Stepping back seems the right answer. My .02 anyway. Quote
Members Suckrates Posted March 6, 2012 Members Posted March 6, 2012 GC, the first life lesson to learn is that there will NEVER be Equality. I know it doesnt seem fair, but there will always be people that are treated differently, better perhaps, for whatever reasons. People have preferneces and make choices, and WE may not always be what they choose. Secondly, you should never NEED to hire an escort. It should be something that you want to do, but not NEED to do. When you take the urgency out of the mix, the encounter is much less stressful, and much more enjoyable. I have read many of your posts here and on Daddys site, and it always seems to me like you are trying to "force" something to BE. You are who you are, and you really cant force things to happen the way you want them. you can work to and end, butr there are no guarantees. I think thats the crux of your disappointment ? You didnt get the result you wanted. but that doesnt change the fact that you are a gay man with sexual needs, and to "Give up" because youve had some disappointments seems weak to me. We have all had disappointments, but as long as you know who you are and keep going, you will have no regrets. YES it is frustrating, and theres no rhyme or reason as to why things happen. Why is that gorgoeus guy with that unnattractive guy and nOT with me ? This is a question you can never answer. You need to lighten up and stop obsessing over these things. Let there be a natural flow. You might be surprised at what can happen... Quote
TotallyOz Posted March 6, 2012 Posted March 6, 2012 G, I understand what you are saying. We all see guys for different reasons and we all need different things when we hire. For me, I am only looking to get off and move on. I don't really care about anything other than how they treat me that hour or two I am with them. It is a business venture for both parties and when my business is done, I move on. I also hope you keep posting here as I enjoy your perspective. Quote
Guest hitoallusa Posted March 7, 2012 Posted March 7, 2012 gcursot I get you humor... I think you are very fun and interesting guy. I will miss you if you leave:) Quote
Members Lucky Posted March 7, 2012 Members Posted March 7, 2012 My interest in hiring escorts has diminished quite a lot. And, every once in a while, I get tired of being Lucky, but sooner or later I return. Gcursor has proven one thing to me in particular, he has a wild sense of humor. We need that. Quote
Members Suckrates Posted March 7, 2012 Members Posted March 7, 2012 Perhaps I am missing something here? I have followed GC posts here and on Daddys forum, and fail to see any humor in his posts. I do see s serious guy, with serious concerns about his life. I also see a person who is generally Unhappy..... I am truly sorry if I am misinterpretting him, but I have never seen any humor in anything he has shared online. I am open to being "schooled" here.... Quote
Guest gcursor Posted March 7, 2012 Posted March 7, 2012 Thanks guys for all the wonderful posts and comments..you're all very great! suckrates, some people find me uniquely creative and others don't...it doesn't matter to me one way or another. In addition, you will find that most of the creative people are unhappy or tortured souls typically as that is what feeds their creative genius Quote
Guest hitoallusa Posted March 7, 2012 Posted March 7, 2012 You are spot on Gcursor! You are indeed creative! Quote
Members Suckrates Posted March 8, 2012 Members Posted March 8, 2012 Thanks guys for all the wonderful posts and comments..you're all very great! suckrates, some people find me uniquely creative and others don't...it doesn't matter to me one way or another. In addition, you will find that most of the creative people are unhappy or tortured souls typically as that is what feeds their creative genius OK, Ill buy that, so are we to assume therefore that all your stories are merely "Tales" made up out of your creative process ? I has always assumed you were giving us a glimpse into your real life. Perhaps you are just a creative story teller. ? Had me believin... Quote
Guest FourAces Posted March 8, 2012 Posted March 8, 2012 I very rarely hire escorts anymore as they no longer fill the need I had for them. In part because my situation has changed. But I do enjoy the community of guys here and I hope you will continue to hang around with us. Quote
Members Lucky Posted March 8, 2012 Members Posted March 8, 2012 You can go to gcursor's profile, click on the find my content button, and enjoy many posts that show his deep wit. Just one that I liked a lot, his question for God: Why did you make a duck-billed platypus? I know that there are reasons to why you created them. I look at the platypus and have to wonder to myself if you were playing a practical joke? Maybe you got drunk one night with the other deities and this was your way of blowing off some steam. Maybe on the day you created the platypus, you were bored with the whole "world creation" thing and came up with the idea of putting two or more creatures together. However I know that we are all your creatures God and the platypus was created by you. But if I were you, I would expect it to be more than a little miffed when it reaches Heaven and finds out it was created just because you lost in Poker. gcursor Quote
