I guess I am in a unique situation whereby I outlived all of my family, except for 1 brother from whom I am estranged, and all of my "friends" have either passed or are in poor health rendering them unable to help me if the situation necessitated it.
As I turn 63 next month, it is very scary knowing there is noone to call the coroner should I be found dead, or make any arrangements for my final rest. There MY golden years are spent preparing my funeral and trying to find "strangers" who can be paid to send me to my maker. And then who knows if they will even follow thru ? So I really dont know how Golden my golden years are since they are filled with fear, stress and anxiety. My parents both died in their late 60's, so that gives me a few years to sort all this out I guess. Who will dispose of all my sex toys and Drag ? and what will they think of me ? However, I would still rather die than turn into a vegetable, unable to care for myself, and having to rely on paid attendants who will probably be more enamoured with their growing wallets than with ME....
So as long as I am able to suck cock and eat ass, and even have a head turn for me, I will savour it, knowing that these are the joys of my life and they are quickly fleeting.